I wanted to let you know how deeply I love and appreciate you. You are a good honest and loyal person and you inspire me to be that too. I listen to you engage with our girls and it makes me warm deep within my soul.
Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. Lao Tzu
You give me strength when you tell me I can do anything. I have the courage to face the traumas of my past because you are here to hold me and listen to me.
Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Martin Luther King, Jr.
You are my light. Your smile and easy way touches me and lightens me. I love you fully and completely.
My partner and I met at a time when I had stabilized my mental health. Then, a few years in to our relationship, things started to deteriorate. There were parenting challenges and blended family struggles. And then the double blow of toxic work environment and chronic sinusitis hit me full force.
I was tired and sick all the time and my depression and anxiety worsened. I took a leave, had surgery, then changed jobs. It helped for awhile. Then changes in the new job created a toxic workplace and the constant sinus infections returned. A year of continual antibiotic treatment was wreaking havoc with my body.
And then I fell. Just a stupid accident while walking the dog, but it caused serious injury to my entire pelvic girdle. I had another sinus surgery booked. I was having lots of breakthrough anxiety and I was taking more benzodiazepines than one should. Then one morning at work I had a breakdown: locked in my office crying uncontrollably with panic my rescue medication couldn’t touch.
All those men in my life that abused, disappointed, mislead and manipulated me HAD broken me. I just didn’t know it until I was loved by someone good and kind and supportive. Under deep, deep layers of denial this truth had been wanting to be heard. Until it was safe to emerge. If I can break free of the shadows of the past, it will be a therapy breakthrough writ large.
And during all this time, while you support me, it costs you. Is depression is contagious? I don’t know if that’s exactly right, but the article makes some good points: it’s not just “depressive thinking that’s contagious: Positive emotions and thinking styles can be infectious” as well.